Anxiety Is Not Your Enemy

Use it as a tool to understand what's going on in your environment

The other day, one of my clients in an abusive relationship said she wanted to be able to shut off her anxiety. I encouraged her to shift her perspective and recognize that the anxiety is a signal from her body, which is letting her know that it doesn’t feel safe. Anxiety is the automatic response from the nervous system upon detecting a danger or threat. It’s impossible to feel safe in a toxic environment. The best way to get rid of the anxiety is to leave the toxic environment.

That’s a hard pill to swallow, and ironically a reason why a lot of people swallow pills. It’s easier to numb the sensations and feelings (the symptoms) instead of making the big life changes that are needed (the cause). Sometimes we hit the easy button and end up sacrificing long-term peace for short-lived relief. However, the pain of change is temporary and leads to long-term improvement, while the pain of staying in the toxic situation is endless and the misery only gets worse. It’s like postponing an inevitable reckoning with reality.

There’s always a reason for anxiety. It’s an important factory setting in the human nervous system. Anxiety is like a check engine light letting you know that something is off and you ought to investigate so you can deal with the issue before it becomes a bigger problem.

Anxiety serves an important biological purpose, which is survival. If we were unable to sense a danger or threat in the environment, then we would have a lower chance of surviving. The nervous system is constantly scanning the electromagnetic energy in the environment for cues of safety and threat in order to keep us alive.

Anxiety is not a character trait—it’s a response to a toxic environment. Another client recently told me that she realized, only after leaving a 25-year marriage to a covert narcissist, that she’s not the anxious person she thought she was most of adulthood. It was actually her body’s response to the psychological abuse.

The anxiety signal is coming from the Autonomic Nervous System. You can’t control it, which is why people can get to the point where they feel so powerless over that sensation in their body that they have a full-on panic attack. It is possible to do some breathing techniques or use vibrational technology like Solfeggio frequencies to calm yourself down when it’s getting out of hand. However, the anxiety won’t go away until you’ve left the harmful environment.

It’s essential to clarify the scope of the word environment. A toxic environment could be physical (the places and other elements that are physically present), social (the people you’re surrounding yourself with IRL and digitally), mental (the repetitive thought processes you have) or emotional (the state that you’re in). Each of these levels produces an energetic environment, which is the dimension that the nervous system reads through neuroception.

You may or may not be aware of the energetic quality of your environment. Toxins are sometimes visible while other times they’re invisible and more difficult to pin-point as the cause of a problem. When we hear the term toxic environment, we often overlook the mental and emotional realms. It’s important to understand this in order to figure out what’s really causing the anxiety, so the issue can be resolved.

For example, you can leave a toxic relationship yet still have incessant, negative ruminating thoughts about the other person, what happened, what they did or said to you, how you fell for it or put up with it for so long or what they’re up to now without you. You could get stuck in a state of resentment. After experiencing a devastating loss or betrayal, you might get trapped in a mentality of scarcity and lack. In these cases of mental and emotional toxicity, it’s more difficult to notice the link between the anxiety and the “threat”, which is not exterior but rather already within the gates of self.

There is no such thing as faulty neuroception, which is a myth told about post-trauma survivors. Toxic emotions and negative mental rumination are symptoms of unresolved trauma. If you don’t see the toxins, you’re probably not looking in the right dimension and you’ll need to expand your perception in order to figure out why you’re anxious. When the anxiety isn’t about a danger or threat in the physical or social environment, the toxic environment is likely the mindset or emotional state of the individual.

After people leave abusive relationships, sometimes they feel intense, overwhelming anxiety during the early withdrawl phase. They’ll often reach out to the abuser or respond to a hoovering attempt by the abuser just to calm their anxiety, which is like taking another hit of a drug to avoid the torment of the detox.

In cases where the person no longer shares a physical environment with the abuser and has no social contact with them, the anxiety after the relationship ends is usually a product of toxic, repetitive thoughts and emotional states. Maybe they miss the abuser, feel like they can’t live without them, or have the toxic hope that this time things will improve and they’ll be able to live their fantasy with the abuser who finally realizes and decides to change.

Taking drugs or drinking to shut off or drown out the feeling of anxiety is like manually turning off your check engine light because you’re tired of looking at it while you’re driving. It’s not a smart thing to do. It might seem like a good idea and even feel temporarily relieving in the moment, but it’s risky and will eventually lead to much worse problems if ignored.

Every client I’ve worked with who has been in an abusive relationship for a decade or more ended up with chronic illness. Some of them have multiple chronic illnesses. They usually don’t see the connection between their health issues and the abusive relationship until they get out and start creating a new environment. Unfortunately, allopathic doctors are not trained to see these connections, which makes them impotent to truly help their patients heal. Only the most intuitive of doctors or those who have also had holistic training are able to recognize the mind-body connection and see the patient as a whole being, instead of just fixating on the patient’s issue as one pixel on the TV screen, missing the storyline taking place on the bigger picture.

Something I’m recently discovering is that healthy relationships feel like peace. This is a stark contrast to other experiences where I noticed anxiety, butterflies and negative, ruminating thoughts because I was trapped in a fantasy, trying to make something work that was just not working. When it really fits, it feels like peace and that sensation of peace is so evident it’s almost palpable.

When you experience peace in connection, it makes you question all of your other experiences. It becomes easier to notice in retrospect all the different shades of anxiety that you’ve experienced in other relationships or social connections. You might also remember some moments when you felt a deep sense of peace with another human, for example when you were with a grandparent in childhood or even when you’re with your pets. The state of peace is beneficial to the physical, psychological and spiritual health of the individual as well as a society. Perhaps this is why the social engineers continually keep the world in a state of war, fear and turmoil.

The sensation of peace brings a sense of safety. When the nervous system reads cues of safety, we are able to socially bond with others and form healthy emotional attachments. Alternatively, when the baseline state is anxiety, it’s because the nervous system is sensing danger or threat and therefore doesn’t engage the safe and social program, so the attachment system goes offline. The rest-and-digest state also goes offline, which is where the health issues begin.

It’s challenging to create a state of peace in your solo life, yet when you do, the difference between peace and anxiety becomes so clear that you can quickly and easily identify where any new anxiety is coming from, whether internally or externally. The more you clean up your environment (physical, social, mental and emotional), the more peace you will feel and the easier it will be to connect with others whose energy alchemizes positively with yours, generating an amplified frequency of peace together.

I’m pretty sure that most people haven’t had an intimate partnership in which peace is the center where their connection is based and where they continually return after disruptions. There’s a difference between a baseline of peace and the background low-grade anxiety during a temporary absence of chaos, just as there’s a difference between a healthy relationship and an abusive relationship during a temporary absence of abuse. It might seem that such rare partnerships centered in peace are the result of luck, but maybe it’s not luck at all. Perhaps it’s the result of mindset, energetic alignment and the law of attraction.

Of course life isn’t all black and white and things aren’t always going to be in a state of peace. Life is unpredictable and full of unknown, unexpected things that happen. When such things occur, the nervous system activates to meet whatever is going on. Yet in a healthy relational dynamic, there’s a keystone of peace to rely on as a resource and to return to when life gets stressful. Peace holds the space for the temporary emotions of life’s ups and downs to be felt and processed, effectively and positively, so these can be transmuted into learning, growth and wisdom. That’s not possible when there’s no reference point for such a state in a toxic environment where the pervasive baseline is anxiety.

Your relationships are either assets or liabilities. One of your most valuable assets in life are positive social connections. Healthy relationships with allies are especially important in these times of tyranny and increasing chaos in the world.

In abusive and other toxic relationships, there is no peace. Even during the “calm” part of the chaos-and-calm cycle, it’s never really calm. There’s always an underlying sensation of anxiety even when there seems to be nothing to be anxious about. That’s because the nervous system senses the threat in the environment, even if you’re unaware of it.

Sometimes people are intentionally harmful and other times their toxicity is a product of a grave lack of self-awareness, a victimhood state and self-destructive habits. Abusers and tyrants purposely stoke a sense of threat (whether real or imagined) in order to keep their targets in a constant state of anxiety and fear so they remain dysfunctional and unable to leave. This paralyzes people and makes them easier to control. It’s hard to think clearly or critically when the higher faculties of human consciousness are offline because the defensive system is activated by the sense of threat in the environment.

In such a state of lower consciousness, the only behavioral options are fight, flight, freeze and fawn. In order to access clarity, critical thinking, creativity, imagination, intuition, insights and all the other faculties of higher human consciousness which allow us to choose different responses, we first have to shift out of the defensive state.

It’s very difficult to do this while still in a toxic environment. It’s like trying to clean a river while still polluting it. If you want the river to heal itself, stop polluting it. So first we have to focus on making a change in the physical, social, mental and/or emotional environment. While we have no control over physical toxins and toxic people, we can remove ourselves from such environments and set boundaries. The areas where we have full domain are our mental and emotional environments, yet this is often the last place we look.

It can be tempting sometimes to white-knuckle it, using the ego to try to prove how strong you are to endure such a toxic environment, but this is an enormous waste of resources, namely your time and energy, which could be invested in creating and building something beautiful instead of wasted on survival mechanisms. Underneath that ego drive could be a deeper issue in the self-worth. Maybe part of you believes you’re not worthy of good things or of having a peaceful, healthy partnership or maybe you fear that you aren’t good enough to create abundance in your life, so you stay where you are because that’s what you know, even though it sucks. You could be addicted to cortisol and other stress hormones if your whole life has been emergency after emergency. When drama and chaos feel comfortable, you become restless in the lulls, and when restlessness mutates into impulsiveness and carelessness, you unconsciously manifest another big problem.

A particular toxin that can be polluting any environment (physical, social, mental or emotional) is a lie. Sometimes people feel more comfortable living a lie than embracing the truth. This is a popular social trend that’s easily identified by taking a quick peak on Instagram or Facebook.

A lie is like a pile of dead organic matter that decays and rots. It spoils and putrefies everything around it. It generates fear, defensiveness and disgust. You feel the lie under the surface even if you aren’t consciously aware of it. Anxiety can let you know the lie exists and it’s threatening your wellbeing.

A lie destroys everything around it, yet people often fight to defend it. Sometimes we pay dearly in order to maintain the lie. Once a client told me that she knew she was being deceived and cheated on so she didn’t ask clarifying questions, and even when he was telling her the truth in little ways, she couldn’t hear it because she didn’t want to. I suspect many people had a similar experience during the recent years of the scamdemic and maybe years down the road, they’ll admit it.

Most people will turn away from the ugly truth if they don’t want to hear it. Few are the spiritual warriors who can turn and face the truth, the whole truth, and sit with it as well as its implications without fighting it (fight), hiding from it (flight), collapsing (freeze) or putting lipstick on the pig (fawn).

A lie always has a cost. The worst lies will come with great costs, yet even after so much destruction and loss, redemption is possible.

You can transmute the lie by turning it into something like the compost or manure that you use in the garden to amend your soil. New creation and life can emerge, with the right environmental elements, from the transmuting dead matter. Everything putrid in your life can serve this purpose of enrichment and growth. It just depends what you do with it. The same is true of us collectively, as a society. We have the opportunity, now and in the future, to use these adverse experiences to create something beautiful and new.

The redemption from the lie starts by speaking the truth. It’s like turning on a light in a dark room or opening the curtains to let the sunlight in. The truth is where good things flourish and thrive, and it’s where lies go to die a sudden death.

The only way to stand in your power is to choose transparency and truth. If there’s a lie, the power gets corrupted, becoming control, deception, betrayal, secrets and abuse or the flip side of that, where it gets inverted as victimhood and powerlessness.

You have the right to own your power. The Plutonian dichotomy is between power and fear, not love and fear. Love is something else entirely and its nature has been perverted by traditional religion as well as the New Age movement to trick you into giving away your power. This is why the Pope called taking the vax “an act of love” and many spiritual sects that preach loving compassion, acceptance and unity refused entry to the unvaxxed.

No one has the right to take your power, hence the dark forces have clever ways of tricking you into giving it away.

Here’s another case of a recently awakening person who realized he gave away his power. It sounds like buyer’s remorse, though that’s not technically the correct term because no one actually bought it. They got it for free. So it’s more like getting-something-for-nothing remorse, which is a result of one of the dark forces’ favorite tricks.

Everything in life has a cost. It’s the price of admission. As people have said for years about online platforms and services, “If it’s free, then you’re the product.” This comedian speaks the uncomfortable truth about his life choices and what those say about his character as well as the potential consequences.

https://twitter.com/UngaTheGreat/status/1658883883092393984?cxt=HHwWgIC-9ceGxYUuAAAA

We are a few years deep into this massive social and science experiment that was based on lies and threats in order to gain compliance and disconnect people from each other as well as higher states of consciousness. The lies and threats to control your behavior are always marketed as for your good and the safety of the community. Once you start noticing the threats as control mechanisms, you see them everywhere.

Severe Weather Threats

It’s no surprise that the social engineers have an agenda about the climate, which is full of lies, fear appeals and threats in order to groom our compliance. While climate changes are happening on Earth, this is also true of the other planets in our solar system therefore it’s not human-led—it’s a natural, cyclical phenomenon, though likely exacerbated on Planet Earth by the contamination efforts of the philanthropaths in their altruistic plight “to end climate change”.

I noticed in the last year or two that the weather apps and weather segments on the news are using language to trigger anxiety and fear. We used to hear about “severe thunderstorms,” which happen sometimes, and more so in particular seasons and geographic locations. But nowadays they’ve started calling storms a “severe threat”. The word “threat” is being abused. These are only a couple of the notifications I’ve received in the last few months.

A few months ago we had some tornadoes in the DFW, which are quite common here. After that the local Fort Worth paper (now owned by a mega hedge fund in NJ that controls a lot of media assets) basically copied and pasted on a weekly basis, the same article with the same photos, talking about the severe threat of tornadoes. It was promoted on the Apple Weather app multiple times.

Then, they started testing another fear tactic around the threat of tornadoes. However, these inflammatory notifications weren’t based on anything concrete. When I clicked the notification, I discovered that there wasn’t a tornado warning or even a tornado watch! Just a vague, unsubstantiated “threat”.

And again a few days later…

It’s interesting to note that the corporate messaging is the one using the word “threat,” not the government alert.

The same “threat” messaging is happening during the local weather segments in the news. I’ve seen it flash across the TVs at the gym several times but unfortunately didn’t catch photos. If you start paying attention to this, you’ll probably see the same pattern in your local area.

Air Quality Alerts

A similar trend is now happening on the weather apps for the air quality. I’m noticing it on the Apple Weather app as well as the AccuWeather app. First they send an alert…

…Then when you click on it, you discover that it’s activism (Ozone Action Day), but no real threat.

The severity and urgency are “unknown”. When using baseless fear tactics, implying an unknown element surely adds an additional dose of threat…just like the use of the word “novel” coronavirus.

The purpose of Ozone Action Days is described by Green Matters. Notice how the goal is to influence your behavior.

Ozone Action Days provide an opportunity for everyone to reflect on how they contribute to the creation of harmful gases during their day-to-day lives, adopting small changes to decrease the level of bad ozone found in the air. AirNow.gov explains you can change your transportation, household, and lawn and garden habits to do so.

When they send these air quality alerts, they link to an old article on Vox, talking about how dirty air can be deadly. It’s not that I disagree with that statement, but this appears to be a manipulation.

Threatening Your Pets

New laws are being created in Australia for the registration and limitations of cats as this pamphlet from a local city council in South Australia shows. Notice the marketing tagline at the bottom in the purple stripe: “safe” and “sustainable”—two of the keyword terms of Agenda 2030 and the Great Reset.

Pets bring so much quality of life and happiness to their owners. We all know some people who have more than two. Limiting the number of pets that people can have is an all-knew level of trying to limit people’s happiness and wellbeing. Some people don’t have many healthy social connections so they rely on their animals for co-regulation. The registration of pets in an official database could also be a preliminary measure to mandate toxic shots for the animals, lest they threaten to take them away. Any way you look at it, this spells creeping evil.

Meat Targeting in NY

The City of New York is announcing further initiatives to reduce emissions after their Household CBEI Report was recently released in conjunction with the data analysis corporation EcoDataLab, C40Cities (the 15-minute city global think tank) and American Express, who offers a carbon emissions tracker for your spending habits.

Childrens’ Health Defense reported:

New York’s initiative is part of a broader move by global policymakers toward targeting the food system — and meat in particular — as a source of emissions. Proposals have ranged from an outright ban on meat consumption to various types of incentives to minimize meat consumption, encourage lab-grown or alternative meat production to putting extra taxes on meat or forcing animal farmers to stop producing, as in the case of the Dutch farmers.

In the report’s own findings, it states:

Food is the leading source of household emissions in New York City, responsible for 25% of total residential consumption emissions. Within the food category, eating out and animal products (including meat, dairy, fish, & eggs) are the largest sources, accounting for nearly half of all food emissions.

It doesn’t take much brain power to see where they’re going with this. In a “fact-checking” or “debunking” campaign by KHOU11, they state:

The second part of the claim — which suggests New York City is imposing caps on red meat based on this data — is based on an effort announced in the press release to cut food-based carbon emissions across New York City’s agencies and institutions by 33% by 2030. But the release says nothing about capping red meat to accomplish this goal.

The news release does not use the words “red meat” or “beef.” “Meat” is mentioned twice, but in both instances it’s to explain that meat has an outsized impact on carbon emissions produced from food. The release frequently touts plant-based meals as a way to reduce emissions, particularly noting the city’s success with such meals in hospitals and schools.

First of all, “meat” is mentioned seven times in the report, not two. Secondly, I don’t know who hears the word meat and doesn’t think red meat and beef, other than perhaps a gold medalist in mental gymnastics. Thirdly, if they’re asserting (albeit falsely) that meat has such a big impact on carbon emissions produced from food, and food is the leading source of household emissions, and then they’re touting plant-based food as a way to reduce emissions, it isn’t hard to put together those puzzle pieces to see where this is going.

David Palmer, who goes by the Leo King, has been warning that as Pluto in Aquarius goes retrograde back into Capricorn from June 2023 through the rest of the year, the dark forces are going to try to scare the shit out of us. He also said we are going to start to see more clearly where the whole agenda of the last few years was heading. Palmer is the astrologer who was warning in advance about a fake plague coming in January 2020 and he was right about a lot of things.

Stay strong, warriors. Laugh at their ridiculous attempts to scare you with their threats. Focus on cultivating your environment (all four realms!) and keeping it as clean as possible. Invest in healthy relationships and creative projects that bring peace, wellbeing and growth into your life. Nevermind the rest of the noise.

Lean into your power and do not cower in fear. One of these options leads to your freedom and the other one feeds the dark forces. It’s your choice.